Sometimes the best content calendars in the world cannot help you overcome what happens when you are depressed. You try to create content, but when you sit down at the keyboard you find that the creativity you need just isn’t there. I have several blogs that I had to set on the backburner, and that I truly forgot about. I didn’t update them, nor did I do clean up on them (checking links and design). I just sat staring at them and the content calendar, and then I walked away. One of those generates a lot of traffic, and I know that I could expand it so much more, but I didn’t have the energy. I think I only posted 3 blog articles for March. That means a decline in traffic in about 6-8 months. I’ll know why I had that dip.
Yesterday was just as bad. I couldn’t accomplish much writing, but I did finish my grandson’s birthday shirt for Tuesday. I found it odd that it took me all day to create the shirt when normally I could knock one out in an hour. Maybe I was just moving that slow. It feels like I’m moving that slow. Even typing out things that I should be able to finish quickly, I find them taking too much time. I slept in until almost 9 this morning. Instead of finishing up several things in an hour, it has taken me an hour or more on each site. I still have 7 more to go.
I suppose I could beat myself up about this, but I know that it won’t accomplish anything. Instead, I have to learn to let it go and not fuel my anxiety. My goal for this weekend was to spend some quiet time in a creative state. I did for a short while. I’ve not allowed myself time to nap when needed, but at this moment, I don’t think I can.
Overall, I’m just going to press on through with all of this. I’ll worry about things much later.
